may 9, 2009

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As I stood in the familiar parking lot, the one that held so many memories from the 20 months prior to this day...memories of kisses in the moonlight, walks with little B, long conversations, car breakdowns, keys locked in cars, notes on windshields, the feeling of arriving home...I leaned against my car and as the wind swept by me, tears streamed down my face as I watched you drive away.
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You had it in you. The power to leave me behind. To walk away with the possiblity of the door closing behind you. I understand you needed to look out for you, and face your past; I have always wanted you to do what is best for yourself and not let me hinder you or be a stumbling block to that. But, deep inside I wonder, how could you leave me? And would you do it again? Does that mean that later in life you could walk out again if an easier path was offered to you? It just makes me wonder...


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"What now?" I asked myself. I was alone. My two closest comfort and companions were now gone and I was left with an empty space where they once fit. A space nothing else could fill or suffice. The quietness settled around me and I was left there in that parking lot with all of our memories surrounding me. When all I wanted was the nearness of you...
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