Ryan.

6 years ago today.
You decided to go home.
You decided you were too tired and were ready for some peace.
I can only imagine what was going through your mind and heart...

How long O Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and everyday have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me? Look on me and answer, O Lord my God. Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death, my enemy will say, "I have overcome him," and my foes will rejoice when I fall.
BUT I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord, for He has been good to me.     -Psalm 13

So many things I wish...
That you had called.
That you were here today.

6 yrs..I thought maybe there wouldn't be any tears but...time doesn't fill the hole you left in my heart. I came and sat with you for a while, like I always do. And tears flowed. You are always on my mind and always in my heart. I carry you with me. You will never be forgotten...