little B

Two years ago, it was just a normal weekday, we were spending time together running around and decided to stop by the pet store. Petland to be exact. Not with any true notions or plans of bringing anything home...just to browse and cuddle and aw over all the cuteness. And then we spotted you. A tiny little soft brown thing with a little tootsie roll tail and beautiful green eyes. We asked to hold you and a little Yorkie. You immediately came to life bouncing all around, jumping, slipping on the ground and trying to wrestle the Yorkie (really just standing on top of it). You were so small but had such huge energy and determination. You made us laugh. You sparked a light in our eyes. And you brought to light that there was an empty place in our lives. We went home and all we could think about and talk about was you. It was 3 weeks until Christmas.
After a couple days and much emptiness in my heart...I returned to petland.
It was December 12,2007 I held you in my arms and you were at peace. I could hold you like a baby on your back and you would just stare up at me with those beautiful green eyes. You were so unique, such a personality for such a tiny creature and all I felt was love. I carried you to my car and as I walked I whispered in your ear, "You're going home. You have a home. I love you." I knew you were special, and that I never wanted to let you go. But I didn't know how monumental you would be in both mine and your Daddy's lives. How you would carve out a space in my heart that only you could fit in.
I put a collar and a bow around your neck and I kissed you and slipped you into a Christmas bag full of tissue papers. You wriggled about and squirmed, poking your head out right as we knocked on the door of Daddy's house. "Surprise!" He was so surprised and happy and excited. You were the best gift he's ever gotten. And the best gift I have ever given. That's when you found your family and we created our connection, our bond. Just the 3 of us.
We named you Bently. The future days saw so many things. You were such a quick learner and so smart. Learning new tricks, so playful and happy, curious and mischievous, an entire ball of Christmas Joy. You became our Baby. And were treated as such :) Spoiled rotten with so much love.
Then there came a day a year and a half later- May 9, 2009 -a day that broke my heart. I had to say goodbye and watch you ride away...very far away. Tears streaming down my face, my heart felt emptiness again. I knew it wouldn't be the same. During the past 7 months a loneliness has set in. My bed misses the warmth of your little body, my mornings are quiet and there is no puppy bounding to wake me up staring into my eyes, no little baby to curl up and cuddle in my arms, no little mouse to make me laugh.
I miss you. I guess it seems silly to feel so much for such a little puppy, but you truly came into my heart and I will never be the same. I love you to the moon.